the night was no light,
black.
he came in
light cracking the night
stuck in the doorway
of dark
deep hard.
my father,
lean in blue & white pajamas,
wild ignorant farm boy
throws my pajama bottoms
to the pigs,
grabs me by the little skinny knees
& drives his dick in.
i scream
i scream
no one hears except my sister who becomes
     no one cause she didn't hear
years later i become no one cause it didn't
happen
but it's night now & its happening
a train with razor blades for wheels is riding
thru my asshole
iron hands saw at my knees
i'm gonna die
i'm gonna die